The Goth Challenge! Day 20 & 21

Day 20:  If you could dye your hair any color what would it be?

RED!  But I already did that and am again, just in two weeks (TWO LONG WEEKS!) because I want my hair nice and a fresh red for pictures, even though I would like it done now. 

With my hair I have to bleach before dying because it's so dark (only medium brown).
 

 

We Heart It

Blue hair.  As I have mentioned before I love blue hair, especially more of an icy or bright blue that sticks out.  That would be a color I want my hair to be one day (or now if I could).

We Heart It

And of course I want purple hair.  My favorite color!  Actually my friend suggested to me to get purple tips with my red hair which I found to be a great idea.  But to bleach the black out would fry my hair, so that's a sad upsetting no for now.  Maybe next year!  And as I have talked about before, I want a purple mohawk and was seriously going to get one but my mom thought a little more and said no, and my dad said, and I quote, "You can do whatever you want when your eighteen."  Okay, I can wait.  After all the more you wait either it's, yes you want one, or no it's a good thing I took the time to think on that.

Day 21:  What body mod do you have or have considered?

I have two in my ear lobs on each ear and plan on getting a third pair.  I would like to get some higher up but I've heard that is hurts when you get to the cartilage and I'm a bit of a wimp if it involves so much pain. 

Oh and lip rings!  I really did want one for a could couple of years there, but now I have to think about some more.  I still think I would like one in the future.  I also like a nose piercing, like a little silver ball, but I think I have to wait on that one. 

My mom isn't against it now, but my dad is, though.  She just want me to really think about it and make sure that it's what I really want and can live with it for the rest of my life, because it is a life long thing.  But a nose one seems more likely to happen as my dad isn't so against that one.  He just rolls his eyes. 

And a tattoo...  I have thought about that one and I can't decide if I would want one or not.  I like them, but is it for me?  If I did get one it would be either a Jesus Fish, bat, both, or my favorite verse out of the Bible. 

Sincerely,

Angel of Darkness

Outfit For Contest In!

Finally, my outfit for the outfit contest is in!  For more info click here which will take you to the 'Goth and More' Blogging Community on facebook. 

So with that being said, I just want to also say that it is not extravagant outfit or anything like that.  It is simply what I wore Sunday because I felt like it.  And nothing like the lovely outfits of Miss Sary Walrus, Kitty Lovett, or the Green Fairy, Dr. Cult and others.  Sadly I have no new boots and no new red hair (my old boots have the zipper broken).

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That's my favorite shirt, black with the cross.  I will be sad when it has to go.


Shirt: Goodwill
New jeans: Kohl's $20 (I think?)
Black stud choker: Claire's $6.50
Bead necklace: Self made (everything to make if from Michael's)
Black arm warmer: taken from pair of fingerless gloves with safety pins on the side.
Converse: Journeys $29.99
Sweater: JCPenney

By the way, that pruple sweater is amazing!  I love it, it's also my favorite color, as you all know by now, but even so I still must say it, after all everyone has at least one favorite color.

To those of you who don't know, that cat in the picture is my (or the family cat) Mittens.
 Goofy cat.

I was so happy when I got to do my hair like this again.   My hair has been short for four years now so I'm growing it back out.  I never reached past my shoulder for that long that is.  All I did was pull it up, twist the hair around and take another hair band to hold it like that. 

Well, there you have it!  I hope it's fine that I put my real name, not my blog signature.

Oh!  And one more thing...

Mittens and I!

Sincerely,

Angel of Darkness

Day 17, 18, & 19 of The Goth Challenge

Excuse me for my resent absence.  I am back now, and it seems I have some catching up to do along with an outfit to post for the outfit contest on the "Goth and More Blogging Community" on facebook.  I think I finally found an outfit too, and just in time before the end on this month. 


Day 17: Your favorite Goth brand.

If you must know I really don't have a favorite goth brand as I like certain things from a variety of different ones. 

Well, that was short!


Day 18: Worst hair experience.

Mmm... Well I really haven't had any really bad ones apart from the occasional bad hair day.  Oh and I can't wait till my hair is dyed red again.  Speaking of which I will be going back to the beauty salon I went to to have her dye it back in the permanent red I have before since we never got around to getting a red color to do at home, but the rest if for a later post.


Day 19:  Share beauty advice and take a photo of your make-up.

I don't wear makeup and my advice is the usual.  Wash your face, use a scrub every now and again, and use moisturiser with higher sunblock when in more sun, like summer.  And sugar, stress, and tormenting yourself with worry gives you zits!  No, really, they do.  Also lip balm with sun protection is a good idea too.  But that's all I got. 

Listening to: High Flight Society - Inhaling a Bullet

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

Day 15 & 16

Day 15: Your favorite or most expensive item in your wardrobe.

My favorite is a shirt I got from Goodwill a few years back that is black and has a cross on it, that I will show you sometime this week in an outfit post most likely.  It was at one time short sleeve but it was getting so out of shape and thin that I cut of the sleeves making it a tank top and then sewed one side and cut and knotted the other side to make it fitted again and sewed up the little holes in it, but since there are now more of them I think I might just make a few larger holes in it.  I will not have it for long though, it is slowly falling apart on me.

My most expensive is my Tripp pants.  Right now they are in the process of either being done for or fixed up.  See I decided to take them in and make then more fit, and I can't even remember what I was thinking but I cut the seams off and a bit too much and I am having trouble with the back.  So my grandma is going to come and show me what can be done.  I have a great idea but with the seams cut off that might now work.  My brain works in odd ways sometimes...


Day 16: What's the most casual you've ever dressed?

Well, my style is more casual goth, and even more so in summer time.  But the most casual I've ever dress was one time when I was feeling awful that day and put on my teal sweat pants and more and old faded light teal shirt and white under shirt.  I felt so odd wearing not black or even dark colors and not jewelry that day, but it was nice.  There is also the times when I go camping, or somewhere like that and I don't want to wear anything I care too much about or can get dirty in and not care.  In the colder weather I usually am more dressed up with layers of shirts, a jacket, jewelry and such.  


I have a picture I drew that I want to share with you guys!  Sorry if it is a little bit fussy.

My sister thought it was disturbing, which made me happy.  The drawing is a bit darker in actuality.  I love this little creature.  I usually draw more realistically and in detail as well, which this one does have (the detail).  I did it yesterday.  I originally had in mind a girl, but everyone seems to see a guy so, whatever one you choose your right anyways because it really doesn't matter what I see it as, or saw it as, but what you see.  When I was drawing this I was listening to Creature Feature - Six Foot Deep.

Listening to: TFK - Welcome to the Masquerade

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

Day 13 & 14

Day 13: What was your favorite band T-shirt?

Surprisingly enough my favorite band shirt is my only band T-shirt and not from a goth band.  Do you know how hard it is to find one, and the only goth band I've known of to come here once was TBM but I didn't get to go and I am still saddened to this day about it.  But my favorite band T-shirt is the one I got at a Thousand Foot Krutch concert, the second time seeing them.  I did DIY on it, my first try.  A win.

My band T.  The sides are cut and knotted, one sleeve cut, the other 3 slashes, safety pins in.

Ignore the comforter, I was twelve when I got them, I still like them.

Day 14: What was your best and worst DIY disasters.

The above was one of the best and the one I posted about here.  have done others that have turned out good too, but those are my favorites.  The others I will most likely share with you in a few days.

And my worst... I can't say I have one that ever went really wrong at all and turned out bad.  So I guess I don't have one, yet.


Listening to: Jack Off Jill - Strawberry Gashes

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

Do you ever have the problem when you really like something and go out and get it or go to get it and suddenly everyone has them and so then it turns you off?  That has been happening to me quite a lot lately.  It's really annoying.  I wish I could order online more often, I could get more unique stuff.  And DIY doesn't always work on everything.

It's Been Too Long

I am so sorry I haven't been on here, and doing The Goth Challenge, or reading all you lovely posts.  I'm worn out and very tired and look like a zombie right now and have been busy and *breathe in, breathe out*...  I just got back from a meeting with my awesome tech buddies on planning out the next three months of Rift and planning out videos to shoot, creative ideas for them, creative ideas period, who's doing what, etc.  I just hope this doesn't get to be too much on top of school.  It sounds though that it will actually be easier as in we won't be running it but producing it and making it. 

I have a headache, must be the lack of sleep. 

I shall write some tomorrow if I can to make up for my lack of it.  I hope everyone has a great night. 

Sincerely,
Breanna.
(Yes, I did my name instead)

The Goth Challenge! Day Twelve

I haven't gone bowling in ages, so when I went this evening I had some trouble but it all came back and I had the funnest time ever!  I love hanging out with the tech arts team, they always make me laugh, their like family, a disfunctional family.  I didn't get home till ten and have been a busy all day so that is why I am so late getting to this.  Good thing I typed up the below part of this post earlier.  I haven't had fun like that in quite some time now.


Day 12:  What's your Gothic inspiration?

I have a lot, even if it is not only goth. 

God.  My Savior who died for me, Jesus.  He was the greatest outcast of them all to this day.  I could never do what He did for me, and when I am too weak to move on He is strong.

The Bible and every word in it, especially Revelation.

My mother, my family, and even my wonderful cat Mittens.  He does make me laugh, that cat.  My mom is usually always there when I need her.  Even my little sister is.  And I can't forget my friends.

Nature.  The magnificent  mountains; the trees that tower over head, that give shade or that even are dead and bare no leaves, in the autumn when the change color.  The rivers, streams, and ocean, either loud, peaceful, or huge making you stare in aw.  Even the animals and other creatures on the Earth.  Nature is to me not just an accident.

The sky.  The stars in the night sky and the moon or the clouds that look almost purple in the winter time.  The sunset or sunrise.  The way the sky appears at different times of day or season.

I can't leave out my fellow bloggers now, can I.  You all are a big inspiration to me.  There are so many of you, I love you all like a friend.

The music I listen to.  The band members, lyrics, the sound, the look.  Music like TBM, Thousand Foot Krutch, Skillet, Creature Feature, Bella Morte, FM Static, Hawk Nelson, Nine Lashes, and I could go on and on.  Then the song Disappearing World by Fair.

The past, my past and the events that took place, the people I met or encountered.  The people I once knew.

And the people at church, on the weekend and rift tech team, not on the tech team, pastor Vern, the people on the weekend and rift worship team.  And the many great speakers we've had this summer.  And I can't leave out my rift small group and youth leader Kyle.

Oh I could go on...

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

P.S. I am so excited to be one of the main people for the Rift tech arts team!  I will be creating cues and running the light board and helping new comers on how to work it.  But I'm also a little nervous because that's a lot to take on and I don't really think that I can take it for too long with school and all.  I hope I don't screw up too, but I think I will be okay.  First meeting is this Saturday, should be fun!

The Goth Challenge Day 11!

At the fair today I over heard a little girl in back of me, as I was waiting to go on the ferris wheel with my sister, say to her older sister, "I like what that girl is wearing, her hair, her shoes, her shirt, all of it."  That made me feel much better!  Little kids can either be monsters or very kind.  I used to be one after all...

So, Day 11: Is Goth a lifestyle for you?

I would say yes? 

Lifestyle: An individuals way of living.  Manner of living: the way of life characteristic of a particular person, group, or culture.  Says the dictionary.

    So, I may not dress goth everyday, I do have my days of feeling sick or have run out of black clothes to wear till their washed, and lots of days when I'm not going out and I am dressed very much casual goth.  Or in the case of camping sometimes.  But I cannot see myself with out my dark, Gothic style of dress which is a big part of my life.   Even though I goth music isn't the mass majority of my music collection (that grows a lot!) the music is still a big part of my life.  And I seem to, by subconsciously or purposely, try or not try to incorporate many goth/spooky things into lots of areas of my life and likes.  Like my bedroom, the doodles on my notebooks (bats, skulls, and bleeding hearts usually), even on my days of no black to I try to make if spooky, the books I like to read, the movies I enjoy watching, the art work that catches my eye.  With or without knowing about the subculture all those most likely would be there, it's just who I was when younger and still am.

There are still lots of other things that I enjoy, love, and am that are not goth, or even dark for that matter.  But they too I cannot imagine not being with me, because they're who I am.  I don't just enjoy the darkside of life, but trust me, nothing bubbly or shallow or anything of that nature.

With all that said, yes, I think that goth has because a part of my way of life, so it has become a bit of a lifestyle for me.

I'm sorry this came to you so late, but after the fair and being in the sun for HOURS I am still worn out and extremely tired and want to lay down and sleep for a very long time.  Not too mention that I had been dreading this day and when it came I looked up and saw nothing to be upset about but sadly I was ever so slightly wrong...  There's always a better tomorrow, and tomorrow will be a great day.  Or if it's not I'll make it one!  But I did get a funnel cake! Chocolate Eclair! 

Listeing to: Matthew West - Stronge Enough
It fits so well with what is going on with me in these hard trying times in life...

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness
   

Music of the Moment

We're going to the fair today.  I am excited, I just hope I don't have to go on any rides, I hate that they're all too fast or spinn too much.  I love funnel cakes though!

Okay so, these are some of the songs that I am into at the moment that have either touched me, caught my attention or that I have recently found.  The music genre vaires from band to band and/or song to song, as you may have noticed my tastes also vary that way as well.  Most all of these bands are Christian bands.  A Christian band is where each member is a Christian and they express that through thier music.  There really is no such thing as Christian music either, which makes sence, after all Christianity is not a music genre (I know, I rambling...sorry). 

Moving right along, here they are, hope you enjoy them too!

1. Philmont with The Difference.  Till recently, I forgot about this song.

 

2. Nine Lashes - Anthem For The Lonely.  Caught my attention as I love these guys and they finally now have a new ablum coming out.  This song is from that new ablum.

3.  Icon For Hire - Make A Move.  I just recently found these guys while listening to the above song, and I found them quite good.

4.  Children 18:3 - Cover Your Eyes.  (I have talked about these guys before on my post about Christian Goth/Friendly music.)

5.  Fair - Disappearing World.  This is just such a beautiful song.

6.  This Beautiful Republic - Beautifully Broken.  One of my favorites just like Nine Lashes, TKF, or TBM.  A great song that has recently touched me, yet again.

7.  The Birthday Massacre - Midnight.  I know, I know, enough with them already right?  Well that's just too bad, I'm way to far gone by now...

So there you have it my darklings.  I am well aware that only one is goth, but who cares?  I just love sharing the music I love with you, or whoever is interested.  I enjoy a post of music every now and again. :)  I'm a teenager, what do you expect?  Oh, and have a great day!

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

The Goth Challenge Day 10!

First off I'd like to say welcome to my three new followers and fellow winged creatures of de night!  If not a winged creature of de night, a big welcome to you too!  :D

 Day ten: What do you hate and love about the subculture?
 Good question.  Might as well get the bad out of the way first!

Hate: How you get judged for being emo just because your growing out for bangs that love to fall in your face, wear black skinny jeans, Converse, and a black shirt!  Everyone always comments on how my bangs make me look emo.  I can't help that they won't stay out of my face!  *Takes a deep breath* I'm better now.
  Being judged poorly and stared or glared at like they've never seen anything so shocking.  But it helps when I think of it as they're looking on in aw as I am dressed so awesome.  Which sometimes might be the case.
  And as Tenebris in Lux pointed out as her dislike, is the makeup.  I knew this was bound to come out sooner or later.  I really don't like makeup as far as me wearing it.  And when I first started out in the scene I felt like I had to wear it, even guys wore it.  I know this person didn't know anything about the subculture, but I was told that I'm not goth, I don't wear the dark makeup.  Yet emo seems reasonable even though they wear lots of it too(?)
  Also that just because I don't have any piercings but my ears, my hair not colored (just recently colored), and no tattoos that I am not so much pushing towards being goth.  (I know these aren't true but still.)
  The expense of so many goth things from clothes to boots to accessories.  I just can't afford a lot of it, or really much of it at all. 
  And why does everything have to be so far away from where I live.  Most of it seems to be in Germany.

Love: The way one can express ones self in so many different and unique ways and being able to show ones true self.  Love it!  And not all but a lot of the music is beautiful and different as well, in a good way too.  The whole aesthetic is just wonderful.  The acceptance, it does feel great when you are accepted for being your dark self and not feel so odd or weird about it; having others to relate too and with.  Also the fact that being a subculture it means that you most likely can connect with others elsewhere, such as across the country or in another continent.  Like Australia or the U.K., etc.  And the darkness of it and the spooky.

I'd say the good does out weigh the bad, after all, if it didn't, why would I even be here now writing this?

And on your way out have a look see at my List of Blogs... down on the right side of the page and check out these great blogs if you haven't already.  :) 

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

My Five BudgetGoth Tips

We aren't rich, we aren't poor, we are working class and there's nothing wrong with that.  I am a teenager who works around the yard and at my dad's shop and make no more than $7 a weekend plus the yard work which would be $5.
I love to read things about budget goth because it is very helpful.  But I have learned stuff of my own that helps a lot too.  I can't go out and buy a lot of the goth stuff online, it can be a lot and plus I don't know I feel too comfortable buying online yet, but I will get there.  Anyways, here we go.

1. Buy T-shirts, plain T-shirts, any color you like.  I know a lot of the time JCPenny's has sales for plain T's, like buy one get one 50% off.  I understand not everyone is artistic, but go to Michaels (or Wally World) and buy fabric paint of the color(s) you want to make your own design/drawing on the plain T-shirt(s) you bought.  But be sure to try your art work on something else before your shirt because practice makes perfect!  Right?
2. Everyone knows that thrift stores and Goodwill are good places to look, but never go into those places expecting to find something right away.  You might have to go back several times to find something you really like.  I happen to find my favorite shirt at Goodwill back in 2008.  The black shirt with the cross.  It lasted all that time and it was second hand!
3. Boots.  I love boots, especially combat boots.  Now goth boots can be expensive, and brands such as Dr. Martins (which I love their boots!) and Demonia.  Some people can't go out and buy boots that cost a hundred dollars (even though you know you wish you could!).  Be practical.  Buy boots you can wear for lots of outfits and that work for everyday wear and that will last and you will not get tired of.  My mom bought me combat boots from JCPenny's at thirty something because they were half off.  I love them and they lasted over a year and would have longer if the zipper didn't break. 
4. And of course DIY.  Anyone can do DIY, anyone people!  Pick up those scissors and get scissor happy.  Cut those leggings, cut up those jeans or that long or short sleeve shirt!  Wholly leggings look good with boots and skirt.  (I have only one skirt, which was actually shocking to me and my family since I hate skirts...but this one just... just fits. :)  )
5. So you have an outfit pictured in your mind that you don't have but want because you can so see yourself wearing it.  Well, sometimes these things come slowly if you can't find what you want right away, so be patient, it really does work.  And if you never get it, maybe it was just meant to be.  Do with what you've got and make the best out of it. 

This isn't just for the gothling, but for whoever this helps if you have your own look.  Remember, make what you got work and be creative, but whatever(?).  I could so be a shopaholic, but I won't let myself go there because it's not something that could or would ever make me happy.  I want Joy.

Listening to: Fair - Disappearing World

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

The Goth Challenge Day 9

Day nine: What genre of music do you dislike?

Well...?  I can't really think if just one specifically, so I'll do through the mental list in my head.  Here it  is:

1.  Country is one, although I used to like Carrie Underwood.  Can't really say that much anymore though. 
2.  Rap, hate it.  Although I do like a couple of songs from Manafest and one song from KJ-52, both Christian.  But I have to be in the right mood or it could really bug me. 
3. I also very much dislike hip-hop, there are not exceptions here! 
4. Jazz really isn't my taste.
5. Metal.  Now I do like some songs from Demon Hunter and Within Temptation, but other than that it really doesn't appeal to me, especially with the growling.
6. Screamo is one genre that I dislike along with emo (or emotive hardcore)

I would say that about sums that up.  It sure does sound like I dislike a lot of music though...  Which isn't true! 

Oh boy, I hate being busy.  But I have been reading all your blogs my lovelies!  And even though I may not comment I still enjoyed the read.  I am not ignoring you. :)    Wow, short post.


Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

Day Eight of The Goth Challenge

Day eight: What's your worst and best experience with non-Goths?

Well, all of my friends (but Charisse) are non-goths, my bestest (I know it's not a work) friend never even wears black and all she has is lighter colors, but she does have a morbid sense of humor. 

Best: Older ladies seem to love what I wear.  I had one elderly lady (mid seventies or early eighties) came up to me one day while with me mom shopping and said she loved my outfit, especially my pants with the zipper.  I was wearing my Tripp pants and a tank top with stars on it and a necklace and choker with my combat boots (hey, I liked it and still do).  Then she told me about how back in the day she had some black pants that she took and put on zippers, but she forgot to put and fabric under so when you opened them you saw skin.  And she would have dressed like me.  I notice it's always the elderly ladies that compliment the most.
I have had lot of people tell me how much they love my hair (dyed red with black tips) and how cute it is.  I even got complimented on my awesome tie, that I am now wearing.

Worst: The worst I have gotten is stares and glares.  People usually ignore me or that I'm not there, and I don't think they're trying to, they just do.  I do remember that on the same day when that nice elderly lady came up to me (from above mentioned), while I was walking toward the back of the store, a chick with her little boy saw me as she was walking towards me and glared for a moment and she led her little boy off to the other side of her almost pushing him against the wall like I was going to try and hurt him or something.  But nothing worse than that. 

So those are my worst and best experiences with non-goths.  Over all they seem to be out numbered, with the best out weighing the worst.

 Also, here is that tie I was talking about and my outfit for the day.  I have never yet done an outfit post, and on the poll I resently did in second place was outfit posts.  I guess there's no harm in trying it out to see how it goes.

Awesome red stripped tie: a gift from mom at dad at Christmas
Collared button up shirt: around $10 from JCPenny
Skirt: Don't remember how much, from JCP
Fingerless glove: I think $6:50 from Claire's
Black and grey stripped sock with skulls: $1 from the Dollar store.
Converse: $29.99 on sale from Journeys

Listening to: Skeletal Family - Lies  (love them!)
Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

Day Seven of The Goth Challenge

Day seven: Ten of your favorite Goth bands.

That's a bit of a toughy as I love more than just ten and there are still so many other bands out there I haven't checked out yet.  Last year I didn't even have ten favorite goth bands.

The Birthday Massacre, what a surprise!  I cannot say in words how much I love these guys!  Like I said before Kill the Lights is my favorite song, but so many others are too (this being at the top).  Their music is dreamy and inspirational, I have never known anything like them ever in my whole life.  This is why they are first. <3

Bauhaus, another surprise.  These guys were truly the first goth band I fell in love with.  I just love this song with the piano and the parts were he sings and then speaks.  Very unique.

Again, it was hard to find a song to post because I love all their songs.  This was the only music video and I really love this song with the music and how it has references to Edgar Allan Poe's work (I love Poe).  Their like a little taste of Halloween that puts a smile on my face.

Need I say anything more?  Who doesn't love these guys?  

Aw yes, Depeche Mode.  My mom told me she used to like some of their songs that played on the radio but mostly the different kids listened to them.

I remember when I heard this song I just had to keep listening to it over and over.  The music is sweet yet dark to my ears and I love Noemi Aurora's voice.

At first I wasn't sure if I like them, it seemed as though mostly everyone else did.  But after a while they grew on me and they are one of my favorites now.  This song was the first song that caught my attention.

My mom and dad caught me Siouxie and the Banshees's CD Juju Christmas last year.  Great music, great voice, and a catchy song this one is. :)  I do enjoy the early goth bands.

I instantly liked this song and Ashbury Heights's music.  There is nothing more for me to say.

Bella Morte's song Torn is a great song and I love the opening part of it, it's beautiful. 

Each song was a favorite that I picked to go right along with my favorite band.  Like I said, it was a little hard to pick which ten, but there you have it.  There are so many more you just have to look around and see what you like.  That's what I did when I first started getting into the music.  Not every band appealed to me but I found some I liked and am still doing that to this day because I love finding new bands to fall in love with.

Sincerely,

Angel of Darkness

P.S.  And Celeste at FadeToBlack, if you are reading this, I noticed that I couldn't comment on your posts.  It might be just something going on with blogspot at the moment, but I'm not sure and I thought you might like to know.

Day Six of The Goth Challenge

Day Six: Hand write your favorite lyric and take a picture.

That was very hard to do.  My favorites change all the time, but there are some songs that stand to be my favorite always.  So I chose one that I knew what was my all time favorite from one of my top two favorite bands.  Kill the Lights by The Birthday Massacre.

I really love the whole song so I picked out a part that stood out.  In the song there are references to fairy tales.  But fairy tales are only just that.  There may not be that prince charming.  But yet we still hope that there is, we all want that fairly tale ending.


And I hate watching creepy pointless movies, they make me feel all icky inside.  We watched one tonight, who knew it would be like that.  It was Let Me In, and I was not impressed.


I'm sorry but this is all for today, again. 

Listening to: TBM - Kill the Lights

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

Day Five of The Goth Challenge

Day five: Is there a local Goth band or group in your area?

That's very easy to answer.  No.  The closest bands I can think of are at least a two days drive to where they formed their band, like Los Angeles, California.  And there is not goth group in my area either.  Montana is mountain and bear country, ranch and farming country, so you're most likely to see ten cowboys than one goth.  And if there is I certainly don't know about it. 

And I am afraid this is it for today, sadly I just don't have anything to write about at the moment, plus I'll be busy today.

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

Day Four of The Goth Challenge

Day Four: Name a stereotype or chiche you can relate to.

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I know it's not Halloween yet.

I don't think I can do just one honestly, so I'm not going to. 

•  I love Halloween as much as I love Christmas and Easter, so yeah, a lot.  In fact I think Halloween should be a day off holiday, how nice would that be.  I've wished that since I can remember.  And Halloween decorations, I would have them up in my room not just in October.
• Old stone churches and graveyards.  Love them too.  I love taking pictures of them and looking at the architecture, especially on Catholic churches.
• Haunted houses are the best.  And even though I don't believe in ghosts, I still love to think they're there. 
• I love the supernatural and the night sky.  If you haven't heard of a Christian liking and believing in the supernatural, you've been in the dark my friend.  Believing in God himself and demons and angels and in the spiritual realms is in its self supernatural.  I love to watch supernatural thrillers, or read or watch books and movies with witches. 
• Trench coats.  I love to wear trench coats. 

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Bats, did I meantion bats, cats, crows and ravens.



And there you have it.

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

 

Day Three of The Goth Challenge

 Day Three of the Goth Challenge: When did you come out of the Goth closet?
Mmm... let's see. Probably sometime a year ago.

Well see, I never actually went and told someone that yes I was goth.  More like they just eventually knew for figured it out because it was obvious.  My sister as of sometime in April of last year told a friend of her's who asked me why I wore black a lot that I was "Gothic".  It was actually kind of funny to her a seven year old say that with such confidence.  And it wasn't too long after that that she had my mom look up what it was and saw that there was a whole lot of similarities and so it much be it.  I never reallt felt comfortable with the idea of calling myself a goth till then anyways because by them I new pretty well all about the scene.  A friend of mine had commented that I was really into all this goth stuff.  Which I don't really get that or when people say, "So are you goth or something?"  Yeah...
Anyways.  I never told my parents because I didn't have to, I think they just kind of figured and went along with it. 


Listening to: Creature Feature - Aim For The Head

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

P.S.  While on facebook I stumbled across this interview with Peter Murphy from NBC San Diego if amyone is interested in reading it.  I thought it was okay.  Click here.

Day Two of The Goth Challenge

This is the second day of the the Goth Challenge from Juliet's Lace.  This one is going to be a bit tricky as far as the pictures part goes because I never liked being in pictures because I'm not all that photogenic.  I think sometimesthat I'm still a bit of a babybat, but then again if I am I'm at the end. 

Day Two: Share photos and experiences from your babybat day.
Here we go.

 That's me as the far right side.  This was at my fourteenth birthday party.  Told you, not pictures unless I had to.

Taken at Yellowstone National Park.

I must add this horrible picture of me because it shows me in my first trench coat that I still have a love even if it's two sizes too big.  My style was a slow journey.  When I first wore black nail polish I was twelve, it was for Halloween and I was nervous to wear it.  I don't know why, my mom was fine with it.  The funny thing is that once when I was shopping with my mom she told me that I was picking out all the dark and black clothes.  Till that moment I was not aware of it.

              This is from my fifteenth birthday party.  This picture might seem familiar to you if you read an older post of mine on goth and me.  At this point my style was more noticeable as goth. 

I remember my favorite outfit as being black skinny jeans, my Airwalk Converse style shoes, and my black shirt with a cross on it that I found at Goodwill back in 2007 that is still my favorite shirt today, but it is starting to fall apart. :(  Another outfit I liked to wear was my Tripp pants, black shirt, silver cross necklace, my awesome boots that I can not longer wear because the zipper broke, and my trench coat.  A tad babybat don't you think?  But even though I knew about the fashions of goth I still even today like those outfits.

Listening to: The Cure - Just Like Heaven  

My favorite song! <3

Sincerely,

Angel of Darkness

Day One of The Goth Challenge

Over at the wonderful blog that is Juliet's Lace, Amy, who runs the blog, has created The Goth Challenge and I think I would like to tackle it the best that I can over the next month or so.  Which means I will probably start posting more than just once a week, and also because I have a little more free time that will end with the starting of school.  I think this was a genius idea of her's.  And well, here goes.

Day one: How did you come across the subculture?
I honestly can't quite put my finger on it, but I know it must have been a while back.  I know this because the term Goth had been nothing new to me even if I don't remember where I heard it.  Yeah, I don't always have the greatest memory.  I know that I came across it while I was first checking into emo (I might have left that part out on my last post), and I know I was thirteen when I began my research in the subculture.

Believe it or not I saw my first goth at church.  Yes at church.  Big black mohawk, spiked collar, black shirt, black ripped jeans with a wallet chain and boots.  I was ten when we started going to this church called Chandler Christian Church while we lived there in Chandler Arizona (for two years).  I was either leaving or just coming when I saw this person walk past and I was mesmerized and wanted to know more.  I had never seen anything like it and never quite forgot.

I was always the outcast, if you will, always on the outside and never really felt wanted or like I fit in.  I had friends sure, not always the best of ones but at least I had some.  I never really noticed till I got a little older, about ten when I really noticed that people would never bother to welcome me or talk to me.  It was in Arizona at the time when we used to go to this homeschoolers in the park day, for homeschoolers to get to know each other.  I was usually left alone to swing the whole hour.  Mom would try to help by introducing other kids, but I only found one friend who later found someone else that she would leave me to play with.  I never really dressed like the other kids.  My shirts were not fitted, I wore cargo style capris and the like.  I always wanted to be an artist and a writer since I can remember. 

When I was thirteen on Halloween my mom read us The Tell Tale Heart by Edgar Allan Poe, and from that moment on I loved Edgar Allan Poe.  (I knew this would come up.)  I remember when looking him up I came across the term Gothic referring towards the style in which he wrote.  And that brought me to a page on Wikipedia on the Gothic subculture which mentioned that Goths love to read his stuff.  (This came first actually:) I started going to Rift, a junior high ministry at Harvest Church.  It was my eighth grade year and there I saw a girl who wore no make up (like myself), had on bondage pants, a long sweater, and Converse.  Her style was dark.  I liked it and again was interested.  In small group she was the first person who talked to me and made me feel welcome.  We never really spoke again till a year later when at my freshman year of going to (now senior high) Rift when I was with my dear friend Sarah.  This girl's name is Charisse and we are now really good friends who both love Creature Feature and art.  In fact we are the only two goth kids who go to Rift.

And how could I forget this!  In the middle of all that was mentioned above, probably starting back when I was twelve, in the story my main character started out as a misfit.  She stayed that way for a while will I changed the story up, a lot, in fact started over.  Then instead of her being the misfit I had the idea of having her older brother become the misfit.  The one who seemed like trouble but really, he's not at all.  His style was dark at first, and then goth.  But wait, I couldn't make him something I knew little about.  So then the real research came into play, I liked it for him, it ened up fitting him just fine.  I always forget this little bit.  You could say that me and my character got into this together over the years.  :)

 And there you have it, all these little bits and pieces lead to me finding this wonderfully dark subculture.  (Along with reading my last post.)  If all that was a little jumbled together I am sorry, I'm quite tired as I got back from over night camping with my family this afternoon.

By the way, hello my two new followers.

Sincerely,
Angel of Darkness

My Brush With Emo

Yeah!  My 50th psot!

      Okay, so about the age of thirteen I was looking into goth bands, going into it thinking bands like Evanescence, who I personally don't think it all that great for my taste in music, their okay.  I had come across the name Bauhaus a few times and Siouxsie and the Banshees but never payed much attention to them.  I checked around some with goth and couldn't decide if it was for me so I went to check out emo.

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BOO!  Got ya again.

I liked the emo look as well, for the most part, and thought it might be good to check out to see how well I liked this compared to goth.  First of all I found many websites all about real emo and that they had their own music too and they didn't just listen to music like Slipknot and the like, but had genres of music that started it all back in the early 1980s.  I found one site in particular that had a huge list of bands.  I went I tried quite a few out and ended up very much disliking them all, the music, emotive hardcore, annoyed me greatly.  Very much not my kind of music.  Not all did but none of the bands did I care much for.  So I later decided that if the music didn't suit me then I could be emo because I would be a *cough* poser, and I couldn't have that now could I.

So there it ended, even though I still rather have a liking for the style and have a couple of friends that like emo more than me and one that is.  And thus began my journey into the gothic subculture.  And actually I first heard the 69 Eyes as the first goth music I listened to and rather liked it (The 69 Eyes are a band I now like a lot) and then listen to The Sisters of Mercy, Buahaus, etc. and of course there are bands I found that I just don't like, but when I listened to such names mentioned above I didn't know what to think at first.  So different, so not like what I really ever heard.  But never didn't like it and now I love it! 

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I LOVE blue hair!  It's so pretty! 
Blue and purple look great together...

Have a great day!

Sincerely,

Angel of Darkness

Vacation: Pic Spam

This weekend me and my family went up to Bozeman to take a vacation (Saturday) and Sunday to the two ghost towns Nevada City and Virginia City Sunday.  My uncle and dad went golfing so the rest of us went to town to find something to do.  Now I will not bored you with all the ninety-two pictures taken and with every little things that we saw, this is not my journal and even then...  And 25 followers!  Wow, i never expected that, usually when people see the word or hear the word Christian they turn and run the other way, at least something like that.

We went to the Museum of the Rockies, then to the Pioneer Museum which used to be the old jail house, and next went on a historical walk downtown at all the really old houses built from the early twentieth century back to the 1700s.  I wanted to go on the historical graveyard walk but I was out numbered and we were all so hot and worn out by the end of the other walk that I didn't even want to go. 

Enter in you dare!  It's the attack of the pictures!  BOO!  Gotta, haha!   Anyways.....

Here are the few pictures I thought worthy of showing you from the Pioneer Museum. 

One on the earlier cameras.  (All pictures taken by me or my sister)

Pictured below are small eggette carvings.

And now the arey of old beautiful houses.



Built in 1888 (house 25 out of 29)

I won't bore you with every house, some weren't too impressive.

Rumored to have been a wedding gift from William W. Alderson built for his fiance, said to be designed closely to a doll house she played with when a girl.

Built in 1907.  It combines Queen Anne and Colonial Revival elements.

Built in 1886 by John Mendenhall.  Later Malcolm Story bought the house.  It is rumored that he had it painted pink after his wife passed away.

I have always enjoyed looking at old houses more so in the Victorian and the like architecture so I took lots of pictures of the houses.  I wonder what they look like inside...  Anyways, that was fourteen pictures so far.  And yes, there is way more, but I don't feel like putting more pictures up so I'll just show you at least a few more, not that you care a ton but just because.  The ghost town was interesting from when I last went though...

Three pictures are from Nevada City (there's like six more).

Sister took this one.  It's a Chinese Goods store.

These two are from Virginia City.

A random dog played dead in the middle of the road.  My sister took this one.

The dog says, "Hey, hey guys, look at me.  I'm dead!"

Listening to: Deas Vail - Cages

Sincerely,

Angel of Darkness